When I was in high school, I thought that my early twenties were for getting married, having babies, and settling down. That was what I wanted. For some people, that's exactly what they're for, and it works out great for them. I did not end up with my high school boyfriend like I thought I would, and it was a big, big blessing. I've learned now, a few years later, that that's not what I want at all. I didn't know what else was out there in the world, but now I do. I moved 904 miles away to wide open spaces. I started a new life for myself, all by myself, and made a million mistakes that have taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined. I want other things now.
I'm still a baby, I'm only 20. I have SO MUCH more learning and growing to do, I have so many more mistakes to be made. My early twenties are not going to be for settling down. My twenties, at all, might not even be for settling down. I want, and I NEED, to move a few more times to a few more far away places to keep growing up and keep making mistakes all by myself. I graduated high school thinking I knew it all, I had it all in the bag, I was so mature. When I came to college, I realized I am actually incredibly immature in many ways and I have a TON of growing up to do. I am forever grateful to myself for the courage and the drive to leave behind what wasn't right for me and to pick up and start over somewhere else. It wasn't easy, but it was exactly where I needed to be...this is exactly where I need to be.
My favorite line:
"To find a dream and a life of her own...a place in the clouds a foundation of stone."